This Ramadhan

Ramadhan Kareem all.

Every year, I make a wish to finish reading Quran during Ramadhan.

Have I achieved it?

So far, for the past few years, NO.

Too bad.

This year, I make the same wish.

Today is already 24^th day of Ramadhan.

Looking at the pages left, I doubt I can finish reading the Quran by 30^th Ramadhan.

Umrah 2007-Subhanallah

How can I do my best to balance between spiritual productivity, social productivity and physical productivity? This month seem to be challenging to me. Seem like, I'm doing more for the world and forgetting my obligation for Ramadhan. The demand of my time, seem a little bit overboard. How I hope I can complete my work by the official 4pm, return home, cook meals for iftar and have peaceful tarawikh at mosque.

Looking at the list above, I regret since most of it were unachievable by me.

Quoting from an email sent to me , "no matter how tired we get, similarly we're 'programmed' to feel sadness when we're far from Allah no matter how relaxed we are."

Yes, every day I feel tired from long hours of working, and feel very sad. But I don't know, what really make me feel sad. The above quote seem to answer my question. Cos I'm far from Allah. That's it.

Ya Allah, berkatilah rezeki hambamu ini kerana sesungguhnya hambamu ini tidak mampu menepis kerja-kerja yang datang bertimpa-timpa di bulan Ramadhan ini. Sesungguhnya, berilah peluang untukku terus beramal ibadat di bulan-bulan Ramadhan yang akan datang.